Payless

The pain she feels as if she was stomach first on a bed of hot coals. Niqua completely breaks down. She loses all feeling in her body. So many different thoughts come to mind.She doesn’t love me!Nobody loves me!I hate her!Him!Everybody!God, it’s your fault!Why would you let this happen to me?I wanna die!I wanna fucking kill him!Deciding to let her evil mother possess her is no longer a concern of hers. She feels an epiphany has come to her. “She hates me! She hates me!” Those words settle in her soul. So does“I hate you! I hate you! You don’t believe me! Your own fucking kid? Then, FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU!”Her words dance around the tight confounds of her room. A torn Niqua lays on the side of the bed curled in the corner. She stares at the walls as if the walls are closing in on her back and lonely. Niqua sits and cries until hours later, she falls asleep. As for La’ Vicha, she stays with her thought process that her youngest daughter may be carrying child. She further apologized to Shawn without further condemning him. Before the two hung up, La’ Vicha agreed to have lunch to further discuss the confusion. Once off the phone, different thoughts come to mind. Shawn continues to salute himself. Victorious, he goes back in the house and return to his lady friend, who continues to be frightened from the lengthy conversation she heard. “I hope it’s not what I think it is,” she thinks to herself as Shawn begins to play intercourse with her. La’ Vicha thinks about the possibility of having to support a baby. She keeps her thoughts in her head. Instead of interrogating Shawn about Niqua, she’ll wait to see Baby Girl’s actions. Before Niqua closes her

eyes, she thinks. “Bitch, you don’t wanna care or listen to me, I won’t care or listen to you. Watch me…”