Twisted

The Explanation
Everything happens for a reason and everyone has a story to tell whether it is good or bad. In this case, this story is more so subjective depending on your perspective. I know this story as if it were my own. But what makes this story unique is that every time I tell it, it gets deeper and deeper. The reason being is that I have a metaphysical connection to this story. I watched the story unfold and never really paid much attention until it was over. The story I am about to explain is about my brother Joseph.
Joseph and I weren't brothers by blood but brothers by loyalty long before we even knew what loyalty, love, and sacrifice were. Everyone has that person who they are not kin to that is their brother, sister, mother, father, and so forth. As time when on and we grew it felt like we became one. The bond between us became so strong that I could literally feel his emotions, see his thoughts, and even knew when he was up to something. That's when I knew that we would be brothers for the rest of our lives. But as we all know life has its many twists, turns, ups, downs, and pitfalls. It brings a lot to us that we have no control over and even sometimes puts us in a situation we can no longer control.
In Joseph's case that is what happened and through his life and his story I learned that life is all about how we react to circumstances and situations. But how you react has a lot to do with your level of understanding. The more you understand the better your perspective of the situation no matter what you are going through. Joseph being just fifteen lacked that understanding of his situation and chose the wrong way to handle it with the right people. Like they always say with time the truth will show and in due time that is what happened. The truth really hurts but at the same time it eases away all doubt, the excess pain, saves time, and most importantly teaches us all a lesson and in my brother's case it did. Not only did his story change the lives of everyone who loved him forever but as you read this story it may change yours as well.
You may have experienced this situation but different circumstances with someone you love. I'm truly writing this to spread my experience with heartbreak and pain because you are not alone. When I first heard the news that Joseph had died it wasn't real to me. But, after a while, it took me to a sunken place a place where I felt trapped and isolated. It was so strange to me because it felt like a part of me was gone. Not only did he die young but he was buried with unfulfilled dreams, ambitions, and ideas that will never come to fruition. So many things he will never get to experience like high school, driving his very own car, going to prom, experiencing sex, graduation, seeing his siblings grow and to see life beyond what he knew. Then I begin to question everything from myself to even Joseph. Like was the meant to be or was it just unfortunate? That is something that I still haven't figured out to this very day and I may not ever figure out. For me personally, that's my battle within myself. But God gives everyone a deserving death or does he? See then it gets deeper. It gets more and more philosophical. Like do we have free will? Is God even real? Do the good really die young? Is death a horrible thing or is it a spiritual awakening? I'm only 20 I'm getting to far ahead but it is something to think about. It's crazy what something like this will do to you and I'm only his brother now think about how his mother feels and Joseph was her firstborn. I'm also writing this to speak for her too. Though I can't feel any of her pain or even a glimpse of what she feels I know she is hurt more than anyone else.
Once my own mother told me "nobody is going to love you more than your mom will. Hell, I love you more than I love myself." And this came from a black mother so just imagine how not only Joseph's mom feels but every mother out there who lost their child whether it be suicide, gun violence, drugs, beat to death, and so forth and so on. I'm writing this for you as well and for everyone who has lost somebody once again. This book is more than a tragic story but a revival to everyone who reads it. Life is truly what you make. One of my personal quotes I live by is, "Life is like good pussy you gotta ease into."